I drove past the site in early 2026 on a stinking hot day. I turned around and went back to see what this mysterious plaque in the middle of nowhere was.
Personally I have had a lot of mental health struggles (and find myself again in that situation unfortunately, after doing so well this year) so I'm always curious to know how other people get through it.
I would really like to hear your opinion.
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This is about looking into the future, but also looking into the past. Primarily at one's youth. We've all been there. You can relate to this short video I made below.
Tomorrow
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How are you doing? Something very different from me. A change in direction.
I've began making TikTok videos, experimenting if you like. They're short, fairly easy and fun to make. And they get views. Unlike my video poems, which take a lot of work and get literally nothing. So it's time to change. Here's a couple of recent ones.
I'm not sure how many more of these Video Poems I'll make. I make quick disposable videos for TikTok that get so many more views. These are hard to make. People just don't care about art. About quality. They want a quick hit. Seconds worth.
I have a few 'in the bank' ready to go and many more voiceovers recorded but I'm not sure I'll turn those voiceovers into visuals. I can't upload them to TikTok either. Those voiceovers may never see the light of day. There's dozens.
AI generated for this post. My idea but 'I didn't create it!'
So sick of seeing music videos on YouTube that doesn't specify it's AI. These 'artists' are delibrately trying to mislead people. They're huge egos. Arseholes!
In any regard, there are eight more videos like these complete. Then I may retire them. We shall see.
Thank you for watching. I do appreciate it, so much. Especially if you've been around for years. I started making Video Poetry in 2011. That's 15 years. Nothing lasts forever. And my work down through the decades has definitely been in 'periods'. The short films. The music videos. The video poems. The poetry. The short stories. The novels. Now it's fucking TikToks haha. Sign O The Times.
Here's one of those shitty disposable videos. Doctor Google. So easy to make.
Until next time,
Peace
Anthony
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It's very easy, particularly in the online world, to dismiss others. To make sweeping statements. Ignore the grey areas. The complexities that come with every situation. Blow one's trumpet and promote simple ideologies.
All summed up in this short video (made in '22) from one of my poems, written way back in 2014, yet more relevant now.
My writing (and directing) career never took off the way I'd hoped. (Dreamt of for decades, since childhood).
The below quote is something I need to remember. I gave it all (I was capable of). In retrospect, I probably didn't have the confidence that others have and didn't push it as hard as some would. I emailed, submitted, rang etc but bravado can get you in the door, even with little to no talent. Seen it many times.
Still, I had some successes. Many stories and poems were published and some books too, though the novels I had to do myself. (A lot remains unpublished and perhaps, never will be). The point is, I have a body of work to say, I was here.
Things seemed to have turned again. It's the inevitable backlash. People could only tolerate so much outrage. Especially while pumping out their own form of discrimination.
Really, I should have put this out ten years when it would have had more impact. But then I would have been branded a bigot for questioning it. I guess that's the point.
There was no justification for the hate then. And there's no justification for what we're seeing now. Cancellations and assassinations.
'If you want to make the world a better place, look in the mirror and make that change.'
Good news is that I haven't had a drink for a year. Almost to the day.
Bad news is that poor mental health (intense anxiety) just made it too difficult to drink. Last time I tried it, I became sick. Probably for the best. It would give me relief and fun for a night and then make me depressed for a couple of days.
You may be able to relate and certainly, the world is littered with them (us).
Do you have a crutch? We all have our coping mechanisms. What do you use to get through difficult situations?
I hope it helps you. It works! But you have to work at it. Daily.
I'm still working at it. It's an hour by hour process. And often I fail. It's hard not to trust your own feelings and thoughts especially if they're automatic and persistent. Which mine are, but that's what you have to do.
It's essentially about neuroplasticity. It is possible to alter your brain. It's not easy. A work in progress. Stress comes along which can send you back. Your own brain can try to trick you and send you backwards. It wants you to be anxious, to protect you from danger. It wants you to be depressed. To prove that the world is against you and that you are worthless. None of these things are true. Acknowledge the feelings as theyre almost impossible to stop but keep talking yourself up. Keep going. The alternative is not an option you want.
In time, they lose their power and the world shifts. Suddenly, you're more free. Your mind is not your jailor. It's a slow process. But it works. Just keep at it.
Artist unknown. Appears to be linked to Fine Art America
Now, to follow my own advice. As I said in the video, I've gone backwards somewhat. Which means I need to do this more.
I'm so glad I wrote this when I was feeling good and made this video because now I use it for inspiration. Because I need it. Desperately. And others will too. Please share it. I think it's a message worth sharing.
If interested, my mental health has declined in the past 10 days, but I'm still doing better than I was. I still have faith. Just have to hang on and keep working at it. It's so hard to not trust your own thoughts and feelings. But it's what I have to do. I can't go back to how I was.
I watched a fascinating little documentary last night about a 60's folk/blues/country singer, Karen Dalton. Nick Cave speaks highly of her. Like many creatives, she could create art from life but struggled to live in it. I can always relate to people like that. The sensitive ones seem to struggle the most. Never achieved fame, though she could have. She didn't want it. Only released two albums. She died in poverty in 1993 aged 55. A very unique voice. Look her up on YouTube.
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