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Wrap me up in alcohol

 

Blanket Love

 

Third beer in

Still the anxiety

Seeps through the legs

Like a bad blood transfusion

Reminding me of my fallibilities

And how strong

It actually is.

 

Relief will come soon

Followed by a brazenness

That I rarely feel

Though wish it were often so.

 

Or should I simply accept

The way I am?

Negative

Melancholic

And self-destructive.

 

I wouldn’t treat another

This way

Yet, I can’t silence

The inner tormentor

Who betrays me often

Whilst also keeping me honest

And real.

 

A conundrum

I can’t seem to unravel.

 

Perhaps the worst thing is

The recent realisation

That I’ll still be this way

At 75

If I make it that far

And possibly worse

And I’m already

So tired.

 

Some sanctuary then

At 55

Is still being able to

Find relief

Within the false blanket

Of booze

Which is only now

Wrapping me in its warmth.

 

Soothed

At last

For tonight only.

 

 

11.1.23  7.45 pm

First poem of 2023.







Can you fix yourself with a Broken Brain?


Hi,

How are you going this week?

A lot of our problems in life are seen through the prism of our own eyes. So how can we solve certain issues when we can't get away from ourselves? Can a person who's depressed cure themselves?  

Here's a little video I put together called  Broken Brain based on a not very good time. I do hope you'll watch. It's short.





Watch HERE




What did you think? Do you have a broken brain?

Drop me a line or leave a comment on the post. Sharing the video really helps me too. I totally rely on you. People aren't flocking to my channel, much to their own chagrin, so we have to lead them there. 

Have a good week and if it's shitty, ask yourself if it's your broken brain in motion and if not, can you really alter things anyway? Many things are out of our control. 

One thing we can rely on though, is that change is a-comin. Acceptance is king.

Peace

Anthony



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Topical but not a new problem


There's been a lot of talk in Australia lately, especially New South Wales about the problems of alcohol related violence. In particular, the tameness of the sentencing. Of course, this is not a local problem but a global one. It's also a very personal one. I've been assaulted twice, both involving alcohol. The first one occurred not in the inner city but in rural Victoria.
The second was in Ireland. Without going into detail, I'm probably lucky to be alive. I spent time in hospital and suffered post traumatic stress. Given situations faced by others, I suppose I am quite lucky. 



It's a subject clearly close to me. There has always been this issue, so why is it worse today? Are young people so disengaged from the world thanks to the barrier of social media/video games etc that they lack communication skills? Is it over reporting by the media or is it something else?

All I can do is present to you a poem I wrote over a year ago in the first week of January 2013. I had hoped that it would have been published but its too topical to wait around for rejections (there were three). This is based on a story I read about that occurred here in Australia. Of course, it could be anywhere. As in much of my writing, I built upon existing truth without exposing what is real and what isn't. 








Last Orders and Broken Rules


He was looking forward to that first beer
Though for an reason he could not explain
Believed if he began drinking
Before 6 pm
It made you an alcoholic
Unlike his three friends
Who had begun
Some 80 minutes previously
And had called him pussy
He probably could have gotten away with it
Being New Year’s Eve
Eve
And 20 years old
Yet was determined to hang on for another 30 minutes
Easy enough
As they had already left the pub
And were at a 2 bit pizzeria
(Though you wouldn’t expect more
In a small coastal tourist town).

Feeling the full force
Of the sinking sun’s rays
Enough to bring on a sweat
In turn, enough to initiate a yearning
For that first beer
The irony being, that he had to wait
Until they finished eating
By which time it would be after 6
Even though he was prepared to break his own rule
This once
When they suddenly arrived
Lugging attitude
And aggression
Evident in their faces
And postures
Before they said,
‘What they fuck youse lookin' at?’

He counted 5 of them
Before turning away
And had not said a word
Though the unofficial leader of his group
Had already begun to temper
The situation
Which was already nasty
For no real reason at all
That he could think of.

He briefly fantasised
About the nearby beach
(an opposing state to his city living)
And that ice cold beer
Which abruptly seemed
So far away
When the nearest intruder lunged
(sort of fell)
onto him
And something hit him in the face
And he went back in his chair
And knew that he was going to hit the concrete
Hard
Was already destined to
His body not of his control.

His perception ceased.
Chaos followed
Shouting
Spectators
Running
Though one was left
Motionless.

Ambulance
Police
Source
Hospital
Statements, frowns and tears
67 hours later
Life support turned off.
4 days after that
Arrests made
And while a 26 second battle
Became a lifetime struggle
For all
It’s difficult to determine
What was the point.









Nothing angers me more than the gutless, pathetic cowards who inflict violence on another, usually when they're unaware, and the lack of adequate sentencing by judges and government, who travel safely from cars to work and to their dinner parties, and rarely are exposed to these loose cannons, who do not deserve the freedoms that some in other countries, would give their left hand for. 

www.drinkwise.org.au/

https://www.victimsofcrime.vic.gov.au/victims-support-agency